alitimelow

Hello Buzznet people : )

I am so sorry I didn't post yesterday, but I'll post a journal later that explains why : D

Also explains some other stuff : )

This is kind of a filler, I'm sorry D :

Just read the entry I post either tonight or tomorrow morning, it'll explain most everything : )

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"I'm so glad you're mine again," Alex whispered in my ear as we walked back over to Lisi.

He had his arm around my waist and was holding me tight against him. And I had absolutely no problem with that.

I blushed at his comment and grinned. "Yeah."

"Oh my gosh!" Lisi squealed. "You guys are together! Right?!"

"Um," I said nervously. "Yeah."

"This is so great! We have to go back now and tell everyone." She smiled. "I'm sure...she'll be gone by the time we get back."

"Let's hope." Alex said under his breath. I smacked his arm and soon enough we were outside.

We called a taxi and they took us back to the bus. Alex played with my fingers the whole way, occasionally kissing the corner of my mouth. Every time he did that it would send shivers down my spine.

"So," Lisi said, still creepily grinning at us. "What happened?"

"Uh..." I started, not wanting to repeat what had happened.

"I apologized, told her I couldn't live without her, and she ran into my open arms." Alex replied casually. I chose not to mention that the story was actually longer than that.

We walked up to the bus, hand in hand when the cab dropped us off. Lisi was skipping ahead, cheerful because of our good news. I rolled my eyes playfully and pulled Alex along.

Lisi slammed the door open, but was too busy being all chipper to notice. Everyone immediately looked up at us.

"Hey!" Rian smiled widely. "So, what's new?"

I ran up to him and hugged him and he laughed, wrapping his arms around me. Alex pulled me away nonchalantly, hugging me tight against him again.

"So you guys are back together?" Zack asked quietly.

"Yep." Alex answered, looking over at Jack, who was standing but looking at the ground.

"I'm happy for you guys." He said, not looking at either of us. "We need to talk, Ali."

"Okay." I agreed automatically. I followed him into the back room, ignoring Alex's pout.

"Look," He said, finally looking into my eyes. "I think I made a mistake."

I panicked. "What the hell do you mean by the exactly?!"

I was suddenly scared that he still had feelings for me or something.

"I just mean...I do want to be friends. I don't want to lose you because of something as stupid as this, Ali." He told me, tone level.

"Yes!" I yelled, running over and flinging my arms around him. "Thank you, Jack. It means so much to me."

"Yeah," He agreed. "It means a lot to me, too."

Jack smiled, and then released me. "But I think your boyfriend has been without you enough."

I smiled back and turned to walk behind him out the door, but before I could leave, Alex came in.

"Hey," He said, grinning like crazy.

"Um, hi." I said, and I must've looked worried. "What's going--"

But before I could finish that sentence his lips were on mine, his arms wrapped around my waist. I forgot that I need to breathe for a minute. Then I pulled away and took a couple deep breaths.

Then his tongue was in my mouth, and his hands were in my back pockets. I smiled against his lips as he pushed me back onto the bed.

"Ali," Alex said between kisses. "I love you."

"I love you, too." I assured him.

His hands were now creeping up my shirt, rubbing my sides. He was about to lift it off when I became stiff.

"Not ready?" He asked slightly glum.

"Not here." I answered, pushing him off of me and getting up off the bed.

"What? Do you mean not now or...?" He asked, confused.

"I said," I repeated. "Not here."

He smiled again, realizing I meant I didn't want my first time having sex to be in the back of a tour bus, not just not with him or anything.

"I'm okay with not here." He grinned, pulling me back out to the main part of the bus.

Not five minutes after we got back and started hanging out, Vinny decided to announce something.

"We are staying in a hotel tonight." He declared, packing up his suitcase.

"What?" Rian asked in a tired voice. "Why the hell would we do that?"

"Because," Vinny replied. "I'm tired of this bus."

"He needs to feel at home," Matt added.

"Exactly," Vinny agreed, not realizing he was making fun of him.

It was silent for a second before Vinny said, "Oh I get it. Haha, very funny."

"I think it's funnier that you didn't get that until now." Matt replied.

"Shut the hell up! Now, let's find a hotel." Vinny said, aggravated.

So we spent time packing up our bags quietly for a minute. We wouldn't have to except that we needed clothes and our bathroom stuff.

"So," Alex said, his lips at my ear. "Looks like I get my wish sooner than I thought. That worked out perfectly."

"Nothing is perfect." I responded.

He gave me a puzzled look. "You don't think so?"

"I don't believe in the word 'perfect.' It's just not in my vocabulary." I shrugged, and he raised his eyebrows.

"Why not?" He asked, stepping closer to hold my hand.

"I just...nothing's perfect. If it was, it'd be absolutely boring. There's always a complication somewhere."

"Really?" He said.

"A sacrifice always has to be made. It can be big or small, doesn't matter. There's always something just the littlest bit wrong. But," I paused. "That doesn't mean that things can't be extremely close. Or that people can't belong together. It's just there's always something you have to let go to get to there."

Obviously, I was thinking about my family and home. Not like I wasn't happier where I was now; but it's not like I'd give anything to get away from them.

"I know what you're talking about, I guess." Alex said, looking a bit sad.

"Alex?" I asked, and he turned to look in my eyes.

"Yes?" He asked, furrowing his eyebrows.

"I love you so much." I told him, smiling.

He squeezed my hand and grinned back. "As do I love you."

I laughed and we followed Vinny, who had his bags slung over his shoulders, out the door. Who knows, tonight could be fun.

But I was so fucking scared out of my life.

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See? Fillerish. Yet important at the same time.

I suppose you all know what's gonna happen next.

Gosh, this definitely shall be awkward D :

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